F- is for Focus. For me focusing is painful when I’m depressed. Focusing takes my attention off of fears and makes me feel vulnerable. It turns me inside out. I am exposed. I am alone. Focusing outside myself is exhausting. I cannot see the world clearly when depressed.
F is also for fragile. I am fragile when depressed. There is a rawness in my being that pervades my mind. I am completely at the mercy of love.